4 Aug

Last week was hell. Every day I kept starting over my diet, and every day I would fail. Not only was it disheartening, my stomach was really angry with me. I’ve been having stomach issues for a few years. They’ve been more severe in the last 6 months. Here’s where my title came from: blood. Quite a bit of it, actually. There has been blood on and off for the last 6 months, paired with abdominal pain. And it’s not knock you off your feet pain-it’s in the lower abdomen and it feels like menstrual cramps. I went to a low income clinic to have them check it out for me-let’s just say that the doctor was less than thorough and figured it was no big deal. I have another appointment with a different clinic at the end of August, and I’m kind of scared. The internet has brought out the hypochondriac in me and I’m of course thinking the worst, which is easy to do when you have 5 out of 6 symptoms of colon cancer. So, send good vibes, prayers, and positive energy my way, please. Aaaaanyway, since I began the Atkin’s diet on Wednesday, my stomach has been much better. I’ve also felt like I’m in much better control of my eating, and while it is not a diet I will do for life, I just needed a change and it’s working for me right now. I hope everyone is having a good week, and I will keep you updated on my health.


Day Two

22 Jul

This morning I woke up feeling better mentally. I worked a quinceanera at our dude ranch last night, and the menu was fajitas. >_< But, I exercised self-control-perhaps not as much as I would have liked, but it’s definitely an improvement. On the way home, at 1 am, I had my to-go container with me and was really considering eating some more when I got home, but I refrained. I reminded myself that it would be there tomorrow. I also made it a point to ignore all of the bright, colorful, fast food signs and billboards that seemed to taunt me on my way home. Late night eating and fast food binging have been such a part of my life for so long, it’s hard to break the habit. Physically, I still don’t feel so great. I can feel the rumblings in my intestines-they probably aren’t really sure what to make of this green stuff I’m feeding it. They will get used to it, and learn to appreciate it though, I’m sure. I’m also feeling very lazy today, and I know part of that is because I worked late and my body had a difficult time keeping up with being on my feet all evening. As I slowly lowered myself into my bubble bath last night, bones creaking and crackling, I told myself that this should feel like the body of a 27 year old, and not a 67 year old. I will exercise today. Let me say that again, just in case my mind didn’t here me. I WILL exercise today. I’m feeling better already…oh, and as scary as this may sound, I think I’m going to post some pretty graphic before pictures….maybe….if I have the guts. 🙂

Mission: Stay healthy, stay strong (Day One)

21 Jul

After a night of singing karaoke, drinking alcohol, and a 3 am trip to Waffle House, it’s safe to say that I feel like dog crap. My stomach is in knots from being bloated and constipated, I’m tired, and lazy. I was going to swim with my boys this morning until I put on my swimsuit and lost all confidence in my appearance. I stepped on the scale and saw 167.2 lbs. Just two months ago I was down to 153 lbs, which isn’t even my goal weight. I felt like it was time-time to step it up again, and this time, work on a slightly different approach. A friend of mine once said to me that he wished people would focus more on how healthy choices make them feel, rather than watching the numbers all the time. I think he’s right, but I’m not ready to give up the scale just yet. So I have decided to focus on both. I am currently using to keep track of my caloric intake as well as my exercise. I am going to track my feelings here. My numeric goal is 125 lbs. My emotional goal is to finally feel that I’m in control of my food choices. I think that last part will be the most difficult, but I am going to try to take it one step, and then one day at a time. 

Groundhog’s Day

16 Jul

Do you ever have days when you feel like you’re in the movie “Groundhog’s Day?” Every day starts the same-with the same good intentions to eat healthy and exercise, and then each day ends in guilt and frustration? Well that is what I’ve been experiencing lately-it’s also known as the “rut.” Even though I was doing so well just months ago, I can’t seem to pull myself out of eating poorly. Usually for me, the rut is immediately followed by giving up. Well I REFUSE to do that this time. Even if I have gained a few pounds, I have to keep reminding myself that it’s still MUCH better than it was a year ago. I think part of the reason we get stuck in these patterns is because we tend to be hard on ourselves. We use terms like “cheat” and “fail” and “bad” to describe how we’ve been eating. I think there is a certain amount of shame and guilt associated with those words in the first place. Instead of eating a piece of cake and moving on, we think, “oh why bother, we’ve already ruined the whole day” (or week, or program) which in turn, gives us permission to eat even more out of control. Today, if you veer off in a different direction than where you want to be (and this can be applied to much more than diet) simply dust yourself off, and move forward. Don’t let one measly moment ruin your day, and certainly not your entire fitness plan. Good luck everyone, and I hope to take my own advice today!

I’m BACK in the saddle again…

19 Apr

Good evening everyone. I’ve unfortunately had a rough couple of months, but I believe my mindset is back on track. You know how you just get in a funk and can’t be bothered to try eating healthy (or anything for that matter?) Well, I had a successful day yesterday and today was even better. I’ve got to say, I really enjoy Burger King’s chicken, cranberry and apple salad. While it is rather expensive for fast food (I’m used to the dollar menu) it is definitely worth the price. It will cost you 13 points but it is very large and very filling. So if you find yourself out and about and hungry, you might want to try it as a healthy alternative to the usual fast food burger/fries. I also tried a delicious recipe for Pineapple Pork Chops. In the kitchen, I almost always use some sort of olive oil, garlic, and Italian seasoning, no matter what kind of meat I’m using. So I wanted to try something different. I’m almost ALWAYS skeptical about trying new recipes because they’re almost ALWAYS a let down. I was extremely impressed with these chops. The only issue I had with the recipe is that I did not have fresh ginger or red pepper flakes. I substituted 3/4 teaspoon ground ginger and used black pepper to taste. All in all, I will DEFINITELY make this again. Find the recipe here. or under “Food” on my Pinterest. Have a great week! 

Exercise Crazes

30 Mar

Good morning. I’m going to let everyone in on a little secret. You are more than welcome to share this with everyone you know, because I don’t think people have figured this out by now. If you exercise, IT WILL WORK. Whether it is Zumba, P90x or the newest Insanity, if you’re body is moving around, and you’re burning more calories than you take in, you WILL lose weight. It’s so funny to me how everyone jumps at the chance to begin a brand-new fitness routine, thinking it will be the solution to all of their weight loss problems. I’m not saying that all work outs are created equal; however, if you are a person who only works out for the 2 weeks following a new craze…you’re probably not going to have lasting success. We all need to be realistic and know that there probably won’t ever (at least in our lifetimes) be a quick and easy fix for weight loss, at least without causing any adverse effects on our health. If you want to lose weight, or gain muscle, or improve your heart, your first priority should be attempting to make it a habit first. Once you get into a regular routine of exercising, THEN you can begin to tailor it to whatever your needs may be. So how about instead of spending WAY too much money on something that will have cobwebs on it by December, try to get outside and move. I promise, if you begin running or walking and actually stick with it….it works too.

Nothing tastes as good as HEALTHY feels.

25 Feb

My weight is still going down, although my diet was greatly helped thanks to the stomach bug. Not the best way to lose weight, but hey, it happens. This week is especially for women. When I say women, I’m talking to the over 25, one or more kids kind. So maybe you’re one of those women (who all the other women hate, btw) who can get pregnant, eat whatever you want, and then practically strut out of the hospital in your bikini. This blog isn’t for you-in fact, you’re probably not going to be reading this blog in the first place, but I digress….When I gave birth to Noah, I immediately went back to my “pre-pregnancy weight” give or take 5 or so pounds. I started Weight Watchers for the first time about six weeks postpartum. I actually got to the weight I am now. I have really been trying to understand why I couldn’t stay at 155 then, and why I consistently gained weight every year until I topped out at 196 in 2009. I think a lot of it had to do with my expectations. My pre-pregnancy 155 lbs was NOT my postpartum 155 lbs. I was so discouraged. My tummy wasn’t flat, I didn’t have the cute “pooch” I had before Noah-I now had this awful flab. So I said screw it. Why try to lose weight if I’m just going to look like this? I’m not going to be “hot” anymore, so I may as well just enjoy what I eat! Well, I made a huge mistake. You see, my number one goal this time around has been to greatly improve/change my eating habits and maintain a healthy lifestyle. With that as my focus, the outward doesn’t bother me-especially since now I have more realistic expectations. I have learned that, as a woman, that flab or those stretch marks mean so much more to me than being hot. They are battle scars! No, I’m probably not going to go around wearing a two-piece anymore, but so what? I get to play soccer with my oldest and dance with my little one. And not only do I get to do those things, now I can do them without getting tired. Ladies, excuse me, WOMEN, please remember that being thin and “hot” are not the only things in life. There truly is so much more, and when you find it, you’ll be so glad you did. 🙂